Holding the Cup
We all must
hold the cups of our lives. As we grow older and become more fully aware
of the many sorrows of life - personal failures, family conflicts,
disappointments in work and social life, and the many pains surrounding us on
the national and international scene - everything within and around us
conspires to make us ignore, avoid, suppress, or simply deny these
sorrows. "Look at the sunny side of life and make the best of
it," we say to ourselves and hear others say to us. But when
we want to drink the cups of our lives, we need first to hold them, to fully acknowledge what we
are living, trusting that by not avoiding but befriending our sorrows we will
discover the true joy we are looking for right in the midst of our sorrows. ~Henri Nouwen
This is a
time of year that many of us have a difficult time. Mother’s Day should be a
joyous occasion. It is a day that we as children give thanks for our mother and
all she is to us. Even when mother has gone to be with the Lord, there can
still be the joy of remembering.
Those of us
with mother’s who are suffering from dementia or Alzheimer’s or both instead
are often given a bitter cup to drink on this otherwise joyous occasion.
Sometimes dementia and Alzheimer’s disease are kind to their victims, giving
them a happy place to live out their life. Sadly for some of us they give mom a
terrible and painful place to live; filled with pain, anxiety, paranoia, and
fear. We celebrate mother’s day with someone we don’t really know, who looks
like mom but doesn’t act at all like the one that took care of us through our childhood,
teens, young adulthood, marriage, children, and senior adulthood. That mother is gone away somewhere foreign and
distant. The one we are trying to love today may tell us that she doesn’t like
us, doesn’t trust us, or doesn’t know who we are.
We still
love our mom. We still pray for our mom. And we still have hope that during the
good days she has some peace. And we say on this day Happy Mother’s Day mom. We
love you mom. We are going to continue to take excellent care of you and try to
make you comfortable and contented.
In our case,
my sister has chosen to leave her job and has spent the past four years living
with and caring for our mother. I view this as heroic! This has for her been a
supreme sacrifice. My sister is a mom and a grandmother. She will get Happy Mother’s Day cards, hugs,
flowers, and love. She also is holding
that cup sorrow and sacrifice. I pray on this day that she be able to hold that
cup and is able to discover the true joy she is looking for right there in the
midst of her burdens.
Here is a
story from the Alzheimer’s Association that reveals what my sister likely going
is through and advice for all the children out there who are their mother’s
caregiver. God bless you for what you are doing.
Roberta, I
wish you a very blessed and Happy Mother’s Day. I love you.
Muffett's Story
I really don’t know how to convey how horrible this is for her and for me. She has suffered more than we can ever know, both physically and mentally. I have given 20 percent of my life to caring for her 24/7. Predictably, my life has received no attention at all. I have no husband, no family, no career, no retirement, no plans for the future. I’ve had to endure my own personal heartaches in silence, including losing several beloved pets over the years, losing relatives and my own battle with skin cancer. Everything is secondary when you are a caregiver. Your life is forfeited, and because this battle cannot be won, you will ultimately fail. There is simply no way to put a good face on this experience. After all these years, I can offer only this advice to other caregivers:
I.N.J.
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